Pink..

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?

Close your eyes and trust it, just trust it

Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?

Have you ever looked fear in the face

And said I just don't care

It's only half past the point of no return

The tip of the ice burg

The sun before the burn

The thunder before lightning

The breathe before the fraze

Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?

You're whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone

Have you ever been touch so gently you had to cry?

Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

It's only half past the point of oblivion

The hourglass on the table

The walk before the run

The breathe before the kiss

And the fear before the flames

Have you ever felt this way?

La La La La La La La La

There you are, sitting in the garden

Clutching my coffee,

Calling me sugar

You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?

Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight

Have you ever held your breathe and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight?

Tonight

Friends...

Friends.

What do you consider a friend? Do you have different categories to friends? Because I sure do. Yeah it might seem kinda mean to categorize your friends but you know exactly what I am saying. It's quite difficult to open up to a stranger that came across in your life and you found similar things in common. But at least you are able to share those cheesy things or embarrassing things with them.

I really like all my friends [from acquaintances to my closest friends].

They are all different.

BUT WHAT ABOUT A BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND? Does information or a new category form?

I mean for me if I have a boyfriend then I would assume that they have been my close friend for a while.

This all makes sense in my mind.

My main point to all this:

When you feel like no one in the entire world will ever understand you ever channel your inner thoughts ever care about what you feel think express yourself and accept you for who you are.. you will be surprised to see there is that one person. That one person who will make you think otherwise and make you see that HE or SHE is the one that will be there for you during a fight or not during the hardest times between you two he or she will be there. They do truly care. And it's surprising. And in the moment that hard moment where you feel like you cannot take any more steps forward, they are there to lend you a hand to help you walk the path. I was very surprised on how things turned out. I was surprised that even though our thoughts were making each other seem like a bad person, we are still there for each other. It's incredible what our mind thinks when you just think of the worse and assume things. It seems logical just to ask the person whats going on or whats wrong. But it's easier said then done. But you know what? Expressing yourself and letting it known is better than not. What can go wrong? I think the issue would be resolved one way or another.

Gosh, last night...

I couldn't have asked for anything better than that. It was perfect. Now it is time to step forward and continue my path. And I hope he is there with me. Creating a fond deep friendship is important. Willing to form and progress with it is very hard when things hold you back. I just hope we can make it through every time. They are just bumps on the road. And I hope I am able to walk over it with respect, intelligence, and understanding.

What are friends for?

I think for support. For comfort. For security. To be able to share stories, thoughts, and embarrassments with. To hear the truth and to say the truth. I can't seem to find the words or actions to say thank you to them. It's difficult to ask for help but when I do, I know they are there for me.

<3

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry

You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you

Tell you I need you

Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets

And ask me your questions

Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles

Coming up tails

Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy

It's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing

At numbers and figures

Pulling the puzzles apart

Questions of science

Science and progress

Do not speak as loud as my heart

Oh tell me you love me

Come back and haunt me

Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles

Chasing our tails

Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy

Oh, it's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be so hard

I’m going back to the start

It just sucks to have to go back to the start. But maybe this time it would be a better experience, a better person, a better start. Gosh... why does it affect me so much. However, I do need to move on.